just slow

in a chance encounter
saw a boy i was after
quite a long time ago
really ages ago.

in a glance i have find
the one i wanted to be mine
ever after
i wished for ever after.

but now i realized
his dazzling smile
that captivated me
were really a little crooked.

and that his elbows
were actually a little jointed.

and his gait
which made me think
he was calculated
was really
just slow.

still faced madonna

still faced madonna
your mother,
the ideal
in your surreal
oedipal
madness
i cannot compare.

Girl in a long blue dress

girl in a long blue dress
riding on the train
standing gloriously in cotton
laughing insane.

mismatched are her coordinates
and her awfully worn shoe
but will someone care to tell her
she doesn't look good in blue.

TV line

The hardest part of moving forward
is
not looking back

Felicity

movie line

Remember,
Time Wounds All Heals...

marissa tomei's character in someone like you

meteor garden commentaries

i rewatched meteor garden again to see whether i was completely dense for liking the Dao characted less and liking Lei more. But i guess, i'd remain one of those girls (the minority), who will always find taciturn and snobbish thrilling and enigmatic and not get attracted to a guy with bronze body and deep dimples.

smart up

maybe i like making mistakes
and wishing me death
and i like the throbbing inside my head
or maybe i like to excuse myself
for drinking too much tequila, instead
and starting smoking dope
at such a late rate
or maybe i just really like eating my cake
and loving people who are fake
and then getting distressed
as if my heart is being pulled from my chest.

or maybe i just don't really learn
i have an addiction on getting burned
or i like scratching my wounds
and see it bleed again, actually hurts
but makes me feel good
maybe i could be diagnosed as a masochist
or maybe i just like those who are sadist.
do i really have to smart up now
cause i'm supposed to be a grown up
but forgot somehow.